Faith Between God and Me

Faith between God and me

Faith is a belief or trust in a person, idea or thing. Faith is the root of our Christian belief and the foundation of our church. Our faith is strengthened by feeding it. Many feed their faith by going to church, doing good deeds, through prayer, or simply being just a good person. But when the time comes that we are in the midst of severe crisis and we need God but He is not there, that's the time our faith will be weakened.

Some of us have lost our faith slowly, unnoticed and unrealized until it fades and completely driven away. And there are many who never had a faith to lose. It is easy for us to say that our faith is deep and strong when we are in a comfortable position and when He answers our prayer immediately but when we look at the other side that it seems that He is not listening to us we are starting to doubt.

I once questioned the existence of God. I almost lose my faith on Him. My faith is tested but then I failed. That was the time when my mother and father almost broke up. I was still young when that happened and I didn't understand what was their arguing for. I called Him then. I was so afraid, hopeless and angry because I thought he wasn't listening. I felt betrayed and rejected. I questioned and doubt about Him. But I woke the other day, everything was ok. I regret because I almost gave up my faith. I didn't wait for the right time that He would answer my prayers. I realize that I was so selfish because I only call or communicate with God if I have problems but I didn't even thank Him for my blessings. But now I'm trying to change that attitude and I'm trying to strengthen my faith.

If I am to rate my faith now, honestly it is 9. I believe and trust Him but there are still questions in my mind that remain unanswered.