Feelings Case

Wilson I wrote you this letter not to smother you with another way of communication but I just wanted to tell you I'm swallowing my pride and actually express my true feelings I have for you. Things that were great about our relationship - you definitely challenged me spiritually & emotionally Wilson....like our communication, love languages, worship side by side, discussing sermons together and actually wanting to pray and spend time with God together as a couple, we could laugh and have a good time together, we were physically attracted, we could dance like no one was in the room but us, and having fun with friends, and family. It's hard to find someone who actually shares my faith - not perfect - but at least trying to get close to God. There are so many things I loved about you - your loyalty for the 7 months we were together, the sense of humor you had for everything, well almost everything, your intelligence, your sensitivity, and overall your patience with me. Even though we didn't have the same "love language," what one of us didn't have we balanced each other out and I'm so grateful for actually finding someone who didn't give up on me for the way I communicated or struggled to communicate. These are all things I will remember about our time together. For that I am grateful - I will become a stronger person and have learned lessons from these past few months. But - in spite of all the good, we had bad too. I know I took you for granted - not trusting you because of past hurts and mixed signals I felt I was receiving, being clingy and wanting you all to myself. I was doing what I had ended another relationship over and that wasn't fair to you. I know we had an age difference and knew coming into this it wasn't going to be easy. I mean what relationship is? Whatever breaks someone down will always make them stronger. From my perception, you could have helped by being completely honest and blunt with your frustrations and really what you wanted. If you wanted to dip, smoke, drink - it doesn't matter if I didn't agree with it - you make your own choices. What mattered is that you should have just said so - 'Haley I'm going to do xyz'. I should have given you that freedom and not pouted. We should have been clear on what the 'deal breakers' were and then allowed each other the freedom to live with in those lines. I really do not know who this new Wilson is or what he did with the Wilson that I fell in love with 7 months and 23 days ago. I know you're struggling with the fact that all your friends are leaving or have already left and I'm sorry for not being supportive in the past. I just don't understand where all of this came from. So if you didn't already understand I hope this helps you understand why I've been so frustrated. It's hard seeing the ones you love not feel the same anymore and show a completely different side