Horrible

"Oh I don't know, I just miss this guy. But sadly he doesn't know me anymore."

I've been blogging about him lately, I don't know why. I bottled up all the pain inside and one day when I woke up I decided to let it all out, and I'm feeling lonelier than ever. But if I didn't let it all out it will keep on haunting me. I knew it was time I face my fear. LETTING GO OF ALL THE PRECIOUS MEMORIES WE HAD. It didn't really matter to me that we fought maybe almost everyday, well everyday is an ARGUE DAY but still at the end of it all we seem to fall in love with each other even more. But things change, people decide to leave, people move forward and the world doesn't stop for you nor it will wait for you til' you can get back up again. I know it has been almost a year. But nothing has changed yet. I loved him so deeply. Its been so hard for me lately. I turned down every guy who tried to come up to me, Just cause I knew I wasn't ready for anything at all. And I didn't want anyone to get hurt because I wasn't sure of my feelings yet. I just wish we never had to end that way.

I wish you still know me, I wish we never had to end that way. You never said goodbye. I messaged you but you didn't reply. I tried everything I could. It's been hella hard for me to let it all go. I'm going all through this by myself. I wish you never left, but you did and I'm sorry I wasn't enough. I love you so damn much.