I Want Out

Man I want out.

How hard is it to believe that a mortal like me could still feel trapped in such a open environment.

Man I want out.

When thoughts of freedom are not what's beyond the bars, its beyond your own envying mind

Man I want out.

The people I hear, the things I see are not just same-Ole same-Ole anymore. Its starting to get disturbing.

Man I want out.

Ive been here for around 6 years. And still I feel like there are demons inside this kind felt body.

Man I want out.

The stress of it all is not just mental anymore, its starting to become sociable and maybe even physiological if this continues.

Man I want out.

What is it I seem to be doing wrong here? Do I not fit in anymore? Have I ever fitted in to begin with?

Man I want out.

Why talk to him? Why not notice me?

Man I want out.

Cant you see he will use you, and then do the same thing, different woman.

Man I want out.

How is it I feel people are more accepted by others then I am with my own self?

Man I want out.

This cant be my fault right? Is it?

Man I want out.

If it is, then maybe I should say sorry to myself.

Man I want out.

The lack of holding, confidence and even just fun could be holding me back.

Or is it others that unknowingly betray me...

Man I want out.

The butt of jokes am I? The easy target for target practice?

Man I want out.

Maybe its lack of faith. This kind felt body rely's too much on logic and not enough on hope.

Man I want out.

But you know what would make this stress inside go away?

If I got out.

If I did, I would create a persona only to be called "the new-self". One like none other

If I got out.

This kind felt body will become a new person, smarter, smoother and chiller.

If