Me, Myself, and I

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, not touched.. but are felt in the heart."

By Hellen Keller

As I reflect on yet another day, month, and year God has blessed me with, I realize, time and again that He is truly an amazingly God that no one can compare to. He works in my life in ways that are so mysteriously wonderful. He never fails to show me that He is the one that controlling my life. It was through Him that I was able to experience the best and most beautiful thing in a person's life, that is, to have experienced the love of a FATHER.

I grew up with my sister, my two brothers and my mom. Yes, I know there's something missing, living with my mom and my siblings even though we're happy living a very simple life and just surviving a day would be enough for us, still, I am having a blunt and blurred picture of a man whom I met 15 years ago and longing for him to fill the empty part of my heart. I lived a life that a child should not be living with. I envied every family I see every time I walk down the street helping my mom to earn money for us to sleep having a full stomach. These things I am saying, because of where I am now, would look like it never happened.

Those hardships, problems, and many other obstacles I've encountered when I was a child are now all on the back of my mind but of course I know I will never forget those. I am happy and so much contented now because the empty part of my heart, of my life is now filled with love and care I am longing to have from a father. When my mom first met him, my step father, because of my aunt (my mom's cousin) I am really mad at her. I told her that "you're going to meet a guy again and then you'll have a relationship with him and then he will just leave you with a child!" I was too naïve that time, too naïve because of the kind of life we're living.