Won and Lost

The heavy load i was carrying on my back. I can feel it lash through my skin, yet i need to endure this. The heat of the sun, the crawlers creeping through my uniform, the mud, everything tried to pull me down, yet i was still there. I should be there, for everything was depending on me, not literally on me but on the load i was straddling on my back. "Come in delta 214 charlie over kshhhk" over, the portable radio on my back reckoned. "This is Delta 214 charlie over kshhhk, coast is clear over kshhhk," the commander replied to the radio commander. "Stay frosty wait for commands over kshhhk". Those were the last words that i heard coming from the radio commander. Even though the commander said that everything was fine, i can sense something was not right. Everything was going fine, the rainforest was very quiet even though it was the middle of a war. "Stay low ladies, we can get the hell out-ta-here alive if we just try to creaaarrrghhh". A bullet pierces through the commanders head leaving him twitching on the ground dead while thick red blood pumps from his head. A hail of gunfire starts. Ratatatata and i saw three of my fellow country men go down. Ratatatata, the gunfire still continues. I was in panic, seeing three of my comrades fall down at almost the same time made me go a bit insane. Get me out of here!!! were the words that were screaming through my head. A Vietnamese soldier pops up from the fallen tree that i was hiding from. Cont.

His eyes were filled with rage as he was about to stab me with his bayonet. Everything flashed before me, days when i was a child,playing in my backyard, dating my would be wife during my teenage years, the friends i have back there. The world seems to go slow as i saw the bayonet get closer and closer to my face. I was stunned. The fear, the panic, the loneliness, the rage everything made my mind go blank and my body to a full stop. BANG! the Vietnamese soldier drops dead. As i was being pulled up by one of my comrades i came back to my senses. Fuck, i was holding my rifle all along. Upon regaining my bodily movements which was a bit lost during the ambush i positioned myself behind a mound and started shooting. Tak, taktak, tak, and another Vietnamese soldier falls down. The explosions and gunfire still continue. I was a bit enjoying shooting enemies down until i recalled that i was the one, I had the key to victory. I reached out to my back and started to connect with the phone commander. "this is delta 214 charlie, we are ambushed i repeat we are ambushed, requesting back-up and support fire on coordinates N3.14 S6 over ksshhhkk". the moment that i was waiting for the phone commander to reply seemed hours. "copy that, 3 bombers and 2 choppers on the way kshhkk, hang in there" the words of the phone commander gave me the assurance that i would live, i would see my wife, i would see my friends, i would be back. BANG! everything went