Birth of My Daughter

For as far back as I can remember I had my life planned out. I was going to graduate high school, attend college, have a career, get married and finally have children. I was in no hurry to do any of those things because above all I was going to have fun. I was going to enjoy life because you are only young once but old forever. I wanted to take life for all it had to offer. I had the same typical dreams as most little girls. Little did I know my life would take a different route than what I had planned when I found out my senior year in high school I was going to have a child. Now we all know that children seem to bring out the best in people. I have personally found this true. Having my daughter was a life changing event but has definitely brought out the best in me and been blessing.

It was senior year and I was having the time of my life. I was on the cheerleading squad, had lots of friends and a steady boyfriend. Life couldn't have been better. That is when I found out I was pregnant. This was something I couldn't believe. It was something that wasn't supposed to happen to me. I had big plans for my future. I was still a child myself and was scared. I didn't know what to do with a baby but at that point it didn't matter. I was going to be a mother.

Being pregnant in high school was not easy. While all my friends were out having fun I was in the house alone. The senior class went to an amusement park and I couldn't go because I couldn't ride any rides. I missed my senior prom because I wasn't going to dare put my pregnant body into a prom dress. On graduation night when everyone was out celebrating once again I was in the house alone. For nine months I felt out of place and secluded from everyone. It felt like everyone I knew was going on with there life and I was stuck. Even the father went off to college to live life while I was left behind to have a child. I knew I had put myself in this place and I wanted nothing more than to have this baby. At the same time I felt there was so much I was missing out on. I looked at my friends. We were all eighteen and high school graduates. We were all alike yet I was still so different. I had always thought pregnancy was supposed to be a happy time in your life. I couldn't figure out why I was so miserable. One day I was a care free teenager thinking about growing up and becoming an adult. The next day I was taking a giant leap straight into adulthood. My life had changed so quickly and still there were more changes to come.

On August 17, 2001 a star was born. My daughter came into this world so precious and perfect. I knew at that moment that this little play called my life was never going to be the same. I had never seen anything so beautiful and so sweet. Seeing her for the first time made me realize how blessed I really was. To know that God loved me so much that he gave me such a precious gift was the greatest feeling ever. I never knew how much you could love someone until I looked at her. While sitting there holding her it finally