The Awaiting - Creative Writing

The Awaiting

The footpath towards a new beginning; the footprints that directed me to a place that was my sojourn to discover the outlook from the very beginning of the path seemed it will be an obstacle that left the UV rays melting me away. The destination I imagine to arrive in withholds to be a change in time and world to forget about what I fear most, but despite all it came to the decision. I had in taking this journey despite the determination, it was the black long bothering shadow behind me that had me thinking of the memories and life I leave behind when I take my first step, I know there will be no coming back for sure I just can't go through it all again .

The integrity it took to make those steps towards something new. The scorching, sun shone so bright on the humid, dry, deserted, and incredibly hot desert as I walk through the sequestered and gusty trail through this desert I come to remind myself of those days to weeks most of the time I spent from night fall to morning glow alone at home while he stay out and enjoy the acquaintance of the female that dare to not know the relationship status my beloved be tied with. The war and sacrifices I made to be with him, the harmonious caring I mislaid the late night I cried myself to sleep waking from my dreams screaming leaving myself with no sleep. As I continued my journey closer to a new aspect and are postcode the person I wish to become with no inner emotion.

... Days have gone by I am closer to my destination the pathway continues down road but the things circulating around me just reminiscence on everything, the option of seeing everything in a simple and positive reflection is unimaginable when all I have is the negative , disturbing ,heart ripping remarks. The choice of taking another voyage through the clouds and breezy winds with the most colourful streaks of an large inflated flying machine rising with the brisk of large flames I take my self-high above the land, overlooking the great land I was determined to continue on with my two bare feet .the blisters l have on the back of my feet the deep digging within my skin .the blood stains left on my socks replicated on the sharp, deep, discomfort stabbings I had with in my stomach when I inherited the feeling I felt insecure.

"I have finally arrived ouft at last", I expressed ,what a challenge the geographical location could not compare a bit with home, the urban style and tall, top class styled buildings did not fit quite in but this change was bound to happen I need this, I want this . I am looking at a complete different panache in my life. As days went on the more I seem to think I am making changes and forgetting m past the isolation and not having a clue how to communicate in this much unrecognisable nationality and culture .the wall separating me to the life I live yesterday reminds me of how much I still love and care for him the feeling